All I Ever Wanted

Summer. The older I get the more I anticipate it, however, it is never as good as it was when I was young without a care in the world except for maybe I had a book to read, or what I was going to pack to go to the beach. Today my little sister turns 15- which means she will be on the road. She told me yesterday how good of a driver she is, and I told her I thought I was a good driver even at 17- but I wasn’t. I miss the oblivious vision that I had when I was her age, it’s so precious.

Being sick- with food poisoning followed by colitis- made me more aware than I could have imagined. My family was truly concerned about me, who reached out to people I don’t even know. The power of prayer is incomprehensible, and at a time that I was lost it made such a difference. Ever get where you are almost forgetting about God? And that he is giving you breath every minute of every day? I hate how I can get caught up with my own selfish life and forget the most important person in my life. My father told me about everyone at work, whom I have never met, who were praying for me and asking how I was recovering. When I went to church this Sunday everyone gave me a hug and told me they’d been praying for me and asked how I was doing. It was so touching that I couldn’t help from crying. So many people are there for you if you only ask. I love how God mysteriously pulls me back to him when I least expect it.

Having a week off to spend in Decatur has been nice so far. I got to spend time with William and Lauren, who are happily engaged now. I got to go to Atlanta with Davis to see Dane Cook. Although Dane really disappointed me it was amazing because Davis and I got to reconnect. Long distance relationships can really take a toll on you if you can’t communicate well. When I got home I texted a few of my best friends from home, and surprisingly the ones I wasn’t as close to responded and my “best friends” still haven’t. As sad as it makes me, I realize that I am not going to waste my time trying to keep the friendship if it’s only me working for it.

Kristin- I am so happy that we got to live together for one year. It didn’t tear us apart, it most definitely made us closer. I know that you are one of my forever friends that God has put in my life. We’re so different but alike that I know I really learn a lot from you. I just wanted you to know. I love you!

I forget how blogging makes me understand myself more. I won’t wait another month to do it again. Oh and by the way, basshunter is amazing. Tech yes!

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